Lost Soul

Have you ever felt like you dont know who you are anymore? Lately i've been feeling like im stuck at crossroads. not even cross roads. i just feel like im stuck inside a box. trapped is more like it, and have no way to go anywhere.  Feelings of random hate, anger, frustration. all of it just being unleashed like pandora's box just opened. I dont even know why it is i feel this way. May be i do, but i just dont want to recognize it. As im trying despratly trying to get out and change my life, i feel as if i have so little choices i can make. Im trying to think of the positive things it my life.

To be honest, my life has been pretty great. i haven't had much "problems" i guess. I have great parents, who care so much for me. and i have a wonderfully annyoing sister as well. we have our bad days but in the end, i know she'd stick up for me:) no big tragidy, no humungous health issue that would kill me in the near future. Its been blissfully boring life. Until of course couple years ago.

 I dont really know how i got here in life. But i feel as if i've gone off track. My plans for the future just compleatly altered, leaving me with no long term plans at all. Not even few short term plans acutally.

I guess i just feel like there is nothing recognizable in my life at the moment. Im just waiting for something to happen, but i know waiting doesn't cut it. I just feel this lost soul will find a cause. and a reason to look forward for the future.